Cluster headaches and pessimism

A nasty cluster headache ganged up on me today and I got little work done. This may or may not affect Friday’s update; there is still time to catch up. Still, it’s unwelcome at a time when I’m doing some really difficult writing.

Just as I was about to write about this, a reader asked me why there was an Iframe with this blog on it in an old ROCR archive page at Modern Tales. The answer is simple: because the current Modern Tales system does not allow artists to add a blog (or anything else) to the template for any page, the only way to add a blog is to peg it manually to an episode, at or near update time. If you forget to remove it from the old episode, you get it in the middle of an archive. It’s removed now.

Uhm, it’s been in that archive location for about three months. I’ve said this before: I make mistakes. That is annoying but I can live with it. I’ll even admit that I sometimes react crabbily when they’re pointed out. That depends partly on my mood and partly on the nature of the correction. “You substituted ‘different’ for ‘difficult’ in your latest blog entry” is more likely to be accepted with gratitude than “typo in your blog”. But even an unspecific heads-up is better than none at all, and if a large Iframe with text is interposed in a continuous archive for no apparent reason, and just sits there for three months like a big elephant in a small room without anyone saying “Hey, what’s this? Why is it there?”, then it gets unbelievably demotivating when it finally is pointed out. Right now, in my cluster-headache-induced mental haze, I’m wondering who even reads those archives and why I even bother to go on.

I don’t ask much from my readers. I don’t call on them to buy merchandise or donate anymore, not since I joined Modern Tales. I don’t ask readers to shill for the comic on their websites, and I’ve even given up on expecting feedback on the forum.

But just every once in a while I need some sign that people care. It doesn’t hurt my feelings when people point out a typo in the comic or take me to task for some other screwup on the website or in the archives – what hurts my feelings is that they don’t ever do. Even when I unexpectedly stopped updating for weeks because I couldn’t get into my ftp accounts, it took weeks for people to start asking me if I was still alive. I’m creating in a vacuum and I don’t like it a bit.

I’ll move the contact link on the front page up a bit so it’s more visible. But I think I moved it down in the fairly recent past precisely because no one used it anyway.

4 replies on “Cluster headaches and pessimism”

  1. I think it’s easy to assume that a webcomic artist, with a high-profile site and “millions” (regardless of the actual number) of hits per day, must be swamped with e-mail and wouldn’t want to hear from Joe Ordinary Websurfer. Personally, I’m surprised your blog posts don’t get more comments; webcomic readers don’t tend to be shy.

  2. Yeah, well, that’s what made me feel so bad about it all. The lack of response is proof that I don’t actually have that many readers, or they don’t care that much, or both.

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